Im thinking about you

Today its a very awkward day !!Its because i finally realized that i gave up on her ! i never feel so much loved before but now single is the life I'm facing with.Since i was a kid,i always wish for a true love but now i realized that love doesn't see perfectness,rich or etc. But love is a force when both of the sides loving each other ! I always see her smile,attitude and many more as well as getting a conclusion that she's not suitable than me and she's better with my friend.So i had to let it go and i will never know whats the possible ending of me as well as getting a smile back from her.Maybe my attitude kinda weird or what ?But she is disrespecting me and treat the other much nicer than me....What a huge upset towards me,Maybe its because of the 1 sem of school that my attitude treat or hurt her.Its such a shame getting disrespect or even play with me !Nobody will understand my misery but i hope someday i will revenge my misery towards the others girls..And show them respecting a boy is a must thing..But every morning,i opened my eyes and hoped that you will answer me or replying my texts...This SILENCE is slowly killing me ! GIRL you really get me mad !